ext_4091 ([identity profile] torra.livejournal.com) wrote in [personal profile] arrow00 2009-02-01 11:15 pm (UTC)

I did, but I don't think you'd like me to describe it. Even the most hardened of doctors and counclers pale when I used to describe it to them. My nightmares are based in very real fact, very much grounded in reality, and the brutality man can inflict upon man. I actualy had two or three that would rotate around. I actualy have nightmares every night, pretty much without fail, and have since I was born (aint brain chemestry fun, kids? ::G::), but these three are always pretty much the same, and when triggered, shift into not just nightmares, but night terrors.

I have two triggers which would turn any dream into a nightmare, or any nightmare into a night terror: I would try to turn a light on (it would never work, ever, any light not already on in a dream, will never turn on), or I would try to scream (I can't scream in real life, either, I can yell, I can holler, I can sing a note to shatter glass, but I can't scream; when suprised, I only ever gasp or remain silent; my rapests were quite insistant on this fact, I was never alowed to scream...it's held over). If I tried either one of these things, I would imideady realize it was a dream, and then things would get bad. The dream, if it was not already one of my reoccuring nightmares, would imideatly become so.

In recent years, the three I had as a kid have become less frquient, though. My dreams and nightmares are both more varried now then they ever were when I was a kid. Which is nice in it's own way. But the old ones can still be triggered if I try to turn on a light or scream. Those triggers never go away.

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