->Arrow

I was 38 when I wrote my first fanfic and it was life-altering, those fumbled, single-spaced, stilted words

That's it exactly! I remember thinking, "How the hell do I make him get from the kitchen to the bedroom?" and then, after that, it was all type type type and learn learn learn, and everything so shiny and exciting. And it still is. Like I'm still writing my first story.

Oh, that's not it. You're right: it's freakin' indescribable.