->Arrow

I'm glad you took a chance. I try not to leave my readers mortally wounded

I knew that about you. I knew that, and it gave me the courage to click the link. I'm glad I did, despite the tears.

although I am sometimes willing to read stories like that myself (or read them once, anyway. Such as End of the Road. Which is not a death story, Snarky. But it kilt me dead, anyway.)

It didn't kill me. It frustrated me. At the end I kept thinking, okay, where's the rest? Because it didn't ring true for me for the characters. As they kept making the worst possible choices, I started to feel they were veering more and more away from the characterizations I recognized. So I didn't find myself convinced by the scenario, and therefore, no tears.

I was sad as I wrote this because RAY, beautiful Ray, aiiii!

YES!!!!!

But, yeah, Ray is dead, and even just thinking that hurts.

*cries*

We are lucky in this fandom to have afterlife in canon. I couldn't have written this story otherwise, since I don't subscribe to the paranormal normally. But this is dS.

Interesting. Because I couldn't write something like this, and I do subscribe to the paranormal and have had some contact with "the afterlife."

He's a ghost to us, too. Not real. How is he not real?

He is so! He is! And we make him more realier with every story we write.

*loves you quite a lot* Yes. The velveteen detective? :)

Seriously, Plato's Heaven. I buy that, actually: that everything that is imagined, or even can be imagined, has reality on some other plane. It's the other plane that bothers me, really, because like Ray I'm impatient. I want him here, now, physical. But I do get you. I feel him. He lives in me. And I think that's why I recognized him when I watched him...and then started to write him.

And, heck, time is fleeting. We're each not even on this plane very long per lifetime. Fraser's so aware of that. And yet...their FT had to wait till Ray was...oh, God, the love. The enormous LOVE...Ray in the ballroom, under the mirror ball...

I'm crying again. Dammit. *smiles through tears*

But I love you very much.