->Arrow

Whoa, Nellie! This is absolutely aces, dear.

I lovelovelove your Ray - And as it's happening, Ray wonders if this is what suicides feel like, this overwhelming goddamn relief because, anyway, finally it will be over, all the wanting and aching and fucked up Jedi mind-tricks he's been playing on himself ... But now he is past the river denial and his canoe is sinking and he doesn't fucking care, in fact he feels terrific, greatness, because at least he will finally know for certain that his fucking life is over.

Everything about this fic is so spot-on ... *happysigh* Thank you for this wonderful treat. < / fangrrl gushing >